You love someone. They hurt you. You break up. You get over it and move on with your life.
You love someone. They break up with you in hopes of saving you more pain in the future. You see how much it hurts them as they fight through the most selfless of actions. How do you get over that?
I truly believe that this is a love I will never fully recover from.
I have become comfortable in western Europe. I’ve found myself a boyfriend and settled down as much as a traveler ever does. We have plans to go back to England for a couple of weeks then motorbike eastern Europe for 6 weeks.
Well, tonight it dawned on me that the ticket from Tel Aviv to New York that I have been pushing back for the past 5 months could be changed to Tel Aviv to Bangkok. South East Asia has been my dream for the last year. But I have to admit to myself that I know nothing about it. Europe I know, the city names flow off my tongue and I can picture what is unique about each one. South East Asia is a feeling. A feeling that I am being pulled into.
I think it’s time to rip myself out of my comfort zone once again.
This would mean April through the beginning of July in SEA. Then return home just in time for my best friend’s wedding. This would also mean a YEAR on the road without returning to America. 7 months in and I’m not homesick yet… but Europe was always a safe place for me, even before I realized it. I have Joe and Liviana in Milan. In Asia I will truly be completely alone, and much farther from home.
After I a lifetime of horrible men, terrible “relationships”, and generally horrendous experiences…
I find TWO fantastic guys. I am in such a mess. One is home. One is in Europe. Each represents a different road and a different future.
The one at home lied to me about not wanting a girlfriend so I would go off to adventure and enjoy it as much as possible. He lied again to encourage me to extend my trip and look for a job abroad.
The one in Europe is… Comfortable. He’s easy for me to be with. He loves me. He loves to travel. We are going to motorbike Central Europe for a month for funsies. He will chase my dreams with me.
What do I do?
"I saw this elderly gentleman dining by himself, with an old picture of a lady in front of him. I though maybe I could brighten his day by talking to him.
As I had assumed, she was his wife. But I didn’t expect such an interesting story. They met when they were both 17. They dated briefly, then lost contact when he went to war and her family moved. But he said he thought about her the entire war. After his return, he decided to look for her. He searched for her for 10 years and never dated anyone. People told him he was crazy, to which he replied “I am. Crazy in love”. On a trip to California, he went to a barber shop. He told the barber how he had been searching for a girl for ten years. The barber went to his phone and called his daughter in. It was her! She had also been searching for him and never dated either.
He proposed immediately and they were married for 55 years before her death 5 years ago. He still celebrates her birthday and their anniversary. He takes her picture with him everywhere and kisses her goodnight.
Some inspiring things he said;
"I was a very rich man. Not with money, but with love"
"I never had a single argument with my wife, but we had lots of debates"
"People are like candles. At any moment a breeze can blow it out, so enjoy the light while you have it."
"Tell your wife that you love her everyday. And be sure to ask her, have I told you that I love you lately?"
Be sure to talk to the elderly. Especially strangers. You may think that you will brighten their day, but you may be surprised that they can actually brighten yours.”